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The College Experience
03:17
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I'm a loser, I have lost my self respect
I have given up on all the things that I used to love
I'm a secret that you'll never know
I'm a household plant that never grows
So stop pretending that you care
about a thing I have to say
Get your five bucks back and meet me at the frat house
We'll have a lot more fun
We'll pound back brews. we'll trip on shrooms
and waste our lives away
Cause I won't give my years away
Writing songs that you can't relate too
I've finally let it go
I'm a loser, I have lost my self respect
I have given up on all the things that I used to love
I'm a secret that you'll never know
I'm a household plant that never grows
I'm tired of failing and being a has-been
throughout my life
And putting myself out to people who don't count
Who don't give a fuck
So here's just one more song, and it goes...
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Same Sad Song
04:07
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Its never ending, its so degrading
I was so sure that I had it right this time
This cycle ends, I'm back in my basement
Strumming chords, in deep contemplation
Why I still feel the same way
So I'll sing the same sad song that you've heard too much of
With the same two chords that you'll never get tired of
This time, I'm not going to let my own self doubt get in the way
I'll give the people what they want, to hear and see
Its not a game, things can never be the same
Make a choice, cause its them or its me
Make a choice, and tell me how you wanted things to be
I'm back in this world where I don't belong
I'm back in this same place and singing the same old song
But I'll do it right this time
I miss your voice, call me when this blows over
This bleak october
I'll start again, and I will do what's right for me and not for you
I'll write a different story with a different ending, I'll think it through
And this time I'm not going to let my own self, get in the way
This isn't me, This can't be me
This isn't how I wanted life to be
So I'll sing the same sad song that you've heard too much of
With the same two chords that you'll never get tired of
This time, I'm not going to let my own self doubt get in the way
I'll give the people what they want, to hear and see
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And so time moves on, and I'm still here
Its not what I had in mind, but I'm on to the second tier
And when I think back to where I was and where I'm off to
I didn't have it so bad, I didn't have it so bad
I don't know why I was so sad
When I learned the truth through drugs
And through writing these songs no one understood
The truth was the truth hurt, from then on I did the very best I could
And it all led up to you
Oh, I lost my sense of self-control and gave love another shot
A month or two was all it took, and love was what I got
So now I'm stuck here wondering, was this what's best for me?
Or will I spend my days in ruin, longing for my dignity?
Like the wind, oh she sings so softly
And I have never felt so at home
Oh, but when she leaves me
I have never felt so alone
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11:30 and I've got nothing to do
I sit in silence with my thoughts and wait for the nightly call
Its getting late, and I'm sure I'll take this the wrong way
No one can help me in this
What happened? Its such a pity
You said you'd call and said you'd miss me
I'll try not to be needy but I've seen this all before
I may be paranoid, I know I've got it totally wrong
But I can't get this image out of my mind
I know I'll wake up in the morning and I'll feel just fine
I know you'll call, but I've become a secondary matter of concern
No one can help me in this
What happened? Its such a pity
You said you'd call and said you'd miss me
I'll try not to be needy but I've seen this all before
What happened? Things got so shitty
You said its fair and said its easy
I'll try not to lose my grip, but I've lost my grip on you
Don't say you want me so
Don't say you need me, whoa
Don't tell me everything will be okay
Cause you know its not the truth
Cause you know its not the truth
What happened? Its such a pity
You said you'd call and said you'd miss me
I'll try not to be needy but I've seen this all before
What happened? Things got so shitty
You said its fair and said its easy
I'll try not to lose my grip, but I've lost my grip on you
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I never wanted this, you never wanted this
I never thought that this could end so badly
And now its such a mess, and now I'm such a mess
and now I'm dying just to get back to
A place where I don't feel fucking sad all the time
A place where I am free from myself
This song should not exist, this song should not exist
It fucking sucks that this song has to exist
So now I'm dying just to get back to
A time when you looked at me
Like I was a part of you no one could be
When you said you'd cry when I would leave you
So now you go on and live your life
It isn't much but its better than nothing
This is my testament to you, so listen closely
Don't let this tragedy consume you
And mostly, don't stop
Even when the going gets tough
Don't stop until its gone
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Year In Review Connecticut
